May 31On Endings #4It is the end of everything which is another way of saying it is the beginning of everything. It is the end of the day which is to say it is the beginning of the stars and the beams of moonlight bathing the chuparosas and the ponderosa pines. It is…Memories3 min read
May 31On Endings #3Lately I’ve been remembering when my children were little. It was frustrating and exhausting. Just a few days ago their mother and I were laughing about how the funny thing about having little kids is how you could be pushing a stroller through a park on a sunny day, your…Parenting4 min read
May 31On Endings #2My mother died in my arms. I say that sentence all the time because its power never ceases to stop me in my tracks and quiet my mind. I am happy that I got to hold her as she transitioned from here, a place we only barely understood but were…Death4 min read
May 31On Endings #1Where I am the winds are blowing so forcefully that the house creaks and rattles and the trees bend in a way that looks like they will break. I can see the ocean from this hill and even though it’s been here forever it always surprises with how vast and…Relationships3 min read
May 1My Body Can FeelI went into the sauna and decided I would stay there until I saw god. It was 190 degrees, 12% humidity. I didn’t want to die, I just wanted to break for a moment from the surly bonds of the day. The confusion and fear, fatigue at work, competing deadlines…Spirituality6 min read
Published in Momentum·May 1When Your Body Saves Your LifeI was seventeen years old the second time someone pointed a loaded gun at my face. Of course, it was the police, of course I hadn’t broken any laws or even committed a misdemeanor, of course it was because my skin is black. Of course, it was because I was…Body6 min read
May 1On ControlI don’t remember when I started viewing my body as an enemy, but it was pretty early on. I resented my body because it stood in the way of my happiness. It felt wrong. It was not fast enough or strong enough or coordinated enough for me to have the…Environment3 min read
May 1What Is The Body For?When I was about 12 years old, I got caught masturbating. It was, it seemed, the final straw in a long line of behaviors tied to my budding sexuality that the people who were raising me found troubling. A few weeks earlier I had been caught trying on women’s clothes. …Body5 min read
May 1BeautyIn March my theme was Beauty. Here are the stories: Someone Tried To Make Something Here Part One of a Four-Part Series on Beautycarvellwallace.medium.com My Uncle and The Lake Part Two of a Four-Part Series on Beautycarvellwallace.medium.com Spring Returns and Dies Again Part Three of a Four-Part Series on Beautycarvellwallace.medium.com The Real Meaning of Beauty Part Four of a Four-Part Series on Beautycarvellwallace.medium.comBeauty1 min readBeautyIn March my theme was Beauty. Here are the stories:Someone Tried To Make Something HerePart One of a Four-Part Series on Beautycarvellwallace.medium.comMy Uncle and The LakePart Two of a Four-Part Series on Beautycarvellwallace.medium.comSpring Returns and Dies AgainPart Three of a Four-Part Series on Beautycarvellwallace.medium.comThe Real Meaning of BeautyPart Four of a Four-Part Series on Beautycarvellwallace.medium.com----
May 1MemoryIn February my theme was memory. Here are the stories: We Waded Into the Dark Waters Part One of a Four Part Series on Memoryhumanparts.medium.com Haunted Houses Part Two of a Four Part Series on Memorycarvellwallace.medium.com On Sid and Nancy Part Three of a Four Part Series on Memorycarvellwallace.medium.com We Surrendered Part Four of a Four Part Series on Memorycarvellwallace.medium.com1 min readMemoryIn February my theme was memory. Here are the stories:We Waded Into the Dark WatersPart One of a Four Part Series on Memoryhumanparts.medium.comHaunted HousesPart Two of a Four Part Series on Memorycarvellwallace.medium.comOn Sid and NancyPart Three of a Four Part Series on Memorycarvellwallace.medium.comWe SurrenderedPart Four of a Four Part Series on Memorycarvellwallace.medium.com----
